6th August

One of the first times I slept over, I just could not sleep because I found it difficult to have another human next to me. A stranger. I woke up earlier and saw you lying there peacefully. So beautifully. I remember wishing for this to work, somehow. Not to freak out and run away, as I do. I wished so much you were true to me. Because, somehow, I felt this might be worth it. But also ready to goodbye out in a second of suspicion. I have had this feeling many times before. The severe doubts. But never really in a mixture with such a sense of safety. And you were laying there so calm and your skin was so radiant. Perhaps you felt the same but I had no idea. I didn't know you. So I carefully took my phone out and secretly made a picture of you. I just wanted to own this moment forever, so, no matter how things are going to end up, I can return back and relive the evening through the morning when I was held by you...